Of the things I've lost!!!

Well folks it's been awhile. I've been busy getting settled, in both the apartment and the job. Now that the Holidays are here, and I'm suppose to be able to relax alittle, I've come to a realization that the meaning of the season has been Lost. Not only by me somewhat, but by most people. When I was little, Christmas was a time to spend with the family. There was no ifs ands or buts about it. We were always together.
Since I have joined the service, I have had to make sacrifices and stayed away because it was just impossible for me to fly thousands of miles to get there. Now it has been brought to my attention that in order for me to be with them I have to do alittle something extra. "Do this inspection, or this discrepency, and you can go home" are things that I've been hearing the last few days. THAT'S BULLSHIT!!!!!! I am being baited just to make someone else look better. I am begining to feel sorry for them. The day will come when these things will back fire on them.
Well good night all



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MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who Says You Can't Go Home!

This has been a great Thanksgiving. Even though I have spent it in an empty house. Since I have just moved back to Florida, and haven't even finished unpacking yet, I decide not to do the usual trip to Atlanta with my parents. Instead I came down to my hometown of Jensen Beach, to reacquaint myself with the Florida I grew up with. I have been truely amazed at the changes, some good, some bad, but all interesting. Many of my old friends are still around. It has been cool catching up with all of them.
Tomorrow I head back to the big city, and leave the small fishing village with a drinking problem to fend for itself. I am hopeing to to stay in J-ville for a weekend soon. So until next time, Take care All.

11/11

It was on the eleventh hour, of the eleventh day, on the eleventh month that the treaty was sign ending the world's most disastrous war. How many lives were lost? How many lives were saved? How many of you
have forgotten?

To many people these days have forgotten why this holiday exsists, that is a shame. I for one have not and will not ever forget the ones that have given me this life that I lead. I have been to places that you see on the news each day, I have "chewed the same dirt" as the heroes that are over seas. There is nothing in this world that will ever change it. Don't take this as me not being proud of my sisters and brothers that I protecting us, I just trying to make it clear. Anyone that has served this country, I just have one thing to say to all of you !


THANK YOU, your service will always be remember.

The Next Chapter

Okay, I've just got back from a 595 mile roadtrip, to see the one man that has saved my life in many ways. Although it was a good time, it hurt having to leave him again. You see as of Friday, I am no long only 595 miles away from him. I will be over 1200.
I'm glad I got to see him. I have finally put my life together, in a way that make me proud to be there for him. I am finally the man that he should have seen.

Now that I have said that, Friday!!!! Okay I have waited a long time for this. This is my last move, I will be settling down in a matter of speaking. No, I'm not going to marry the first woman I'm attracted to down there, if one is there that can put up with me. I'll be on the downward slope of my career. I have succeed in things that I have done up until now, for my country. Now I will push myself to be successful for me. No, I will never turn my back on my duty!! I will make my duty successful for me.
Okay then, since I decided to get out of my apartment, after being in my car ALONE, for 11 hours. This is my first post from the Flying Saucer, and since it is my last week here, it might not be my last. Have a good night all. Take Care.

Good Friends

Leave it to the Wonder Women, Road Tripper and Bad Wolf, to change a crappy day. I was informed early today that I will have to wait a week to start a new chapter in a new city. THAT SUCKS! Especially when you have been waiting for 3 years to do it.
Now, I will admit that I have hung out with both of these amazing women separately, and in ways it scares me to be with both at the same time. I don't think any amount of testosterone could every break them. I myself wouldn't want to.
They are women that most men can't handle, because they are smart, strong, and desirable. You don't find them everyday. They are the ones you are always wishing you could have. My next ex-wife better like them, if not she can fly a kite.

Success??

What would it take for a person to consider that they have had a successful life? Well, since I had a crummy day at work, I'm ready to move on to the next chapter of my life, and I kind of lonely, let's ponder this today. Now don't think of me as being depressed, because I'm really not. I just think it's time for a someone to step up and say what it is he/she feels.
Success, what is it?
Is it the feeling of acceptance from the people around you? What about the amount of people that work for you? I seen both the best supervisors, and the worse of them all, I'm talking about the bosses that can't do the job to save their life, the ones that can't make a coherent sentence either. How is that they keep getting promoted and giving jobs that others deserve? To me that is not success.

Is success the position a person has in the company or the money they make? Will money buy you happiness? Can you buy friends and family with it? Well we know that's not success.

What about happiness? Is feeling happy with your life success? I think we're getting warmer, but we're not quite there. You see, happiness is a product. It's a product of doing what you feel you need to do and doing what you want to do.

The best way to describe success, in my eyes, is to look at the position of those people around you. If you are a person that people enjoy being around, or people can't wait to see. Then you know you are a welcome sight. If the people do what they can to keep you around, just to make things work out better for everyone, then that is success.
I, personally, take my success from those around me, if they have learned from me and doing everything right, then I am successful. If they are happy with the choices that they make, then I am happy.

I am a successful man, and I always will be.
Till next time.
D

A Fireside Chat

As I sit here tonight trying to keep warm next to my humble little fire, I am forced to think about the future of this great country that I have sworn to defend. The 2008 Presidential Election is just days away we have seen what I feel is the worse of the worse when it come to politics. Mud slinging, dirty politic, he said she said BS, and all the other stuff that was passed around is not what this country needs. We don't need to know why person is not right for the job, but how you will do a better job than the ones before you. Now I will keep the reasons to myself, but I will admit that I choose the lesser of the two evils. If my choice doesn't get elected that's fine, I'll still be on the wall protecting all. If he does then I feel our way of life will be safer for the next 4 years, and then we will have a chance to make that change that we need. So whatever the outcome, whatever the futue, our lives are undecided. Now get out there and vote and have a say in our future.

The Sports

Well tonight I come to you while I'm watching my favorite professional baseball players team. I had an annoying day again, the now to common, waiting for work then watch someone try to do a job that a monkey can do with his eyes closed. Then when the work day was about to end the dog and pony show started. Don't you just love them???

Enough of that junk. Let's start this off right, with my thoughts on pro sports. Yes, there has been some controversy in the last few years. Does that make professional sports wrong? Is it wrong for someone to pursue a dream at all cost? There are athletes out there that do not have the natural ability to follow their personal dreams, I am one of them. I would kill to have the opportunity to play football again, and I will try it. I'm not willing to sacrifice my health for it, but I'm not going to shun someone that does. In fact I will applaud them for their desire.

On the other side of the spectrum, a person should always know their limits. There is a time when the equipment should be hung up and the career is over. Don't scared to become a memory in the minds of kids. Let them see you as bowing out gracefully, not as some greedy arrogant prick.

Now you maybe thinking that I'm only talking about baseball. That is not the case. Do you think that baseball has the only athletes that use drugs? How many pro football players have been arrested for drugs? What about basketball? I'd bet I could go to some courts in New York, LA, Atlanta, or any other major city and find quality players for most sports. These are just people that didn't have the opportunities that the pros have had.

Well I'll leave you for tonight. Take care all.

The Captn and Me

Where should I start? Should I start by telling everyone alittle about myself? Nah that wouldn't be fun. What about who I wish to be? That could be interesting to a very select few of the people in the world. Why don't we start with this blog.

I have decided that it was time for me to start expressing myself in a different way than what I feel is normal. Normal would be any number of things like talking to a shrink (not my choice), talking to friends or a significant other (don't have one anymore), or just dropping a few obscene pieces flesh around the world (that is probably the best choice). Since I try to be an open person, I would not get any satisfaction from either of these choices. So, I have decided to blog.

Some of you have read my blogs on my space, and said to me I'm sorry that you feel that way, or wow that is very morbid or dark. Well I'm going to do something different here. This will be different. I hope to make this one available to my family, so I will TRY to keep this safe from my inner demons.

I will promise to read all the comments, but I will not accept all of them. Remember this when making comments, this will be my legacy. It will be the unedited reading of my mind that I allow my family to read. It may scare them, it will scare me, but I'll do everything in my power to keep it real and full of nothing but the truth, and my true to my feelings. So I hope ya'll will enjoy. Take care until next time.


Draugr94